All Over Again
A post. I ask you.
One day you will throw the stable doors wide, and the horse will not come. You will beg and pray and plead but it will be done, O, it will be done. One day you will wake up to find your house has grown unbearable, the books, the bed, and you will walk out on the whole shebang, as the poet said— except the goddamn horse won’t cooperate. He’ll dig in his heels, spit out the bit, vote neigh. You can’t move a horse if he won’t move, and you will wonder what, exactly, you meant to prove as you go back in to pour the coffee, as you always do this time of day. All horses get complacent in the end. You know what it takes to entice even you outside these days—old thrills ring hollow now and anyway, the roads are bad. Dismal people hang out in the muggy bars, unknown to you. What’s out there for the horse? A post? Gee, thanks, a post. At least in here there’s hay. The promise of the pasture grows less sweet, in time, than the promise of the pasture on some future day—when the stars are right, when the weather’s better, when the ghost is visiting another town. A post. I ask you. You don’t know the meaning of “tied down.”
